on home frequency

Some moodier images of the Big Island.
This place has so much depth and mystery.
Don’t get me wrong- I love the sunshine and white soft sandy beaches. I love warm clear water and predictable waves.
But this is more my home frequency. Lush, broody, wild, unpredictable.
I think of home frequency as our natural ‘radio station’ where we don’t have to pretend or contort for anyone.
This frequency hasn’t always been my preference and probably why I surround myself with lots of sunny, lighthearted, silly friends- I need the balance of levity, of sunshine. I spent a lot of time wishing I was that.
And the truth is I’m not. I’m always deep in thought and imagining. I feel other people deeply. Nothing is simple. I hate small chat. I’m also really funny- but my humor is definitely not for everyone. I’m not for everyone.
This discovery and acceptance of my home base felt like relief.
Do you know yours? Is it your preference? Are you still wishing you were different?